Nothing

I haven't written for awhile. The reason?... i don't know what to write. It's just i have so much things to do. I can't even organize the ideas running in my head. This morning i was talking to my man. He asked me " Baby have you written something in your blog lately?" I told him no. He told me i should write soon. I told him i don't know what topic to write. Then he joked he said why not write a topic about " Not Having a Topic". He is a dork he even told me what is the best introduction to write. So here it is...

Have you ever written a topic about not having any topic. It's about something you don't know and you can't even think of. It's something that you can't imagine and can't even understand coz it's totally about nothing. So if you are reading this it means you've just wasted you're whole 3 mins reading something about nothing, hahahahaha

I love you bebe <3

~genskie~

my baby and his sis when he was a little dork, well he is a full grown dorky now lolololol =)))))

The Abandoned Image

He is the image that I used to know...
The image that used to care and protect...
His voice...
........is like thunder...
 but full of wisdom....
His hands....
.....are like sword....
but full of comfort...

People asking me where this image go...
.....did he ever talk to me before his no show.....
Those questions I myself cant answer....
......but the reason why he has to leave....
I can clearly conceived......

We are not his only family......
I am not his only daughter........
.......and my mother......
..is not his wife.........
They were lovers, met in a wrong place.....
....loved in a wrong time...full of mock....
....and disgrace.......

They fought for their love...thousands of times...
..faced people's judgement , hoped in time things will get fine.....
But what could they do against what is right....
....even the Lord couldn't bless them...for she's not even his wife.....

I am not mad with his image...
....with his image... I don't keep any grudge....
But this abandonment ... just for the sake of his pride.....
Is a disgusting reason ......
....that robs me of my right!......

The Heart of Teaching

"What people need and what they want may be very different.... Teachers are those who educate the people to appreciate the things they need. - Elbert Hubbard"


"I like a teacher who gives you something to take home to think about besides homework.  ~Lily Tomlin as "Edith Ann"


Yes I'm gonna tell it to the world... Loud and Proud... I am a teacher... it's in the blood... my aunt is a teacher, my grand mom's sister was a teacher when she was still alive, some of my cousins are teachers too. But will that make me a good one. Does having a lot of relatives who are doing the same profession make you an effective and efficient one?


Ive been doing this noble job for five years, and I am proud to say that every single moment working and doing this job is very fruitful and rewarding.  Yeah there are a lot of ups and downs, but if you have the heart, plus long rope of patience you can pass a day smiling and not worrying about what's going to happen the next day.

Teachers make our tomorrows leaders. Those people who are going to build our nation stronger, the future leaders, the future scientists and inventors, they are all going to start in that four cornered room called classroom. They are all going to face the challenges of everyday quizzes, recitations and grumble to every homeworks, projects and long exams that they have to take. They will occasionally experience being yelled at or preached by a very dedicated teacher who just hoping them nothing but to learn and grow as a fully developed individual, who is ready to face the big world's challenges.


Two years ago, I was so down and frustrated. I was on the act of giving up and wanting to leave the profession I have embraced and cherished for a long time. My mind was battling over my heart. My heart telling me to stay and think about what's going to happen to my students when i leave but my mind was telling me not to worry about those people who don't even appreciate and recognize what you are doing for them. After a month of contemplating... I made a decision. What my mind's telling me is right. It's time for me to think about myself and explore. There are a lot of opportunities waiting for me out side the corner of this small room. It's way better than talking and teaching about the books online over the phone and computer ( I am an online instructor). So that night I wrote my resignation letter, telling my boss that I can't do the job anymore. But something happened the next day that made me embraced and love this profession even more.


I went to work the next day. I was planning to give my letter to my boss after my work that night. So i still did my daily task... called the students...talked to them explained the lesson. Since my heart was no longer beating to what  I was doing, plus the decision I've made the day before, I was getting frustrated and more impatient to those students who couldnt get the lesson easily and kept doing the same mistakes no matter how many times I had explained the instructions to them. 

.... it was in my last class.... just imagine all the negative energies I have absorbed since my first call on that day... I was about to explode... She's 18 years old and her English is not that good. I had to repeat my self a few times or rephrased my questions before she could understand. I was about to yell at her when she suddenly stopped and called my attention. 


"Teacher?" she said
" Yes Julie!" me sounding mad
Julie in her shy but cheerful voice. " I know you are very very tired teaching me. I am very slow and very not good, but teacher Gen...uhmmm...me...Julie...likes teacher very much.... thank you teacher for teaching me....uhmmm me want to say that.... Julie appreciate you very very much.... and everyday...me....very very happy..every time ....teacher Gen calling me...."  


After hearing those words coming not only from her lips but also from her heart...my heart sank... I found myself crying... tears of joy... that's what I needed to hear. How can I forget those sweet and sincere words from a student who really appreciate you and so bold enough to say her thanks even though she's having a hard time explaining herself in English. "It is indeed very rewarding. This is one of the gifts that money can't buy." 


That night after my work, I decided not to give my resignation letter to my boss.  I crumpled it and threw it into the first garbage can i saw. =)


~genskie~

Thanks Giving Everyday

Even though i clutch my blanket and mutter when the alarm clock rings each morning, thank you, Lord, that i can hear it. There are many who are deaf....

Even though I keep my eyes tightly closed against the morning light as as possible, thank you Lord that i can see. There are many who are blind......

Even though I huddled in my bed because I dont want to get up that you Lord that i have the strength to rise. There are many who are bed ridden....

Even though our breakfast table never looks like the pictures in magazines and the menu is at times unbalanced thank you Lord for the food we have. There are many who are hungry....

Even though my job is  often monotonous thank you Lord for the opportunity to work. There are many who are jobless....

Even though i grumble and bemoan my fate from day to day and wish my circumstances were not so modest thank you Lord, for the gift of life.....

Chatroom Life

I didnt sleep well last night. I only had 3 hours to sleep and still i didnt get it.... blame it on the two mosquitoes on duty last night.... yeah these two mosquitoes never fail to do their duties every night...ahhhh...anyways...

I am chatting in one of these yahoo rooms that are easy to access every time you want a talk and you are welcome to receive crappy comments from some stupid Americans who are thinking that they are so great because they are born and raised in the US... Mind you i said some not all....

Well some of them have this mentality that if a filipino/filipina goes to an American chat rooms (eg. Los Angeles, San Francisco) his/her motives are not good. Either she/he wants to meet an American  to get a chance to come to the US and avail the "green card" or he/she wants to do a cam show (stuffs that some people do on cam aka stripping and  *censored*) and ask money for the show. Well I cant blame them because some of them really doing it but the thing is that they shouldn't talk crap to us(filipinos) in general. I mean the fault of Pedra has nothing to do with Juana. Well i personally experienced this crappy attitude from one of those stupid Americans i am talking about......

In chat your dreams...will be realized..huh?!?...nah not what you are thinking...i mean in chat those things you cant get in real life you can some how achieve in chat... like if you want to be popular and strong you can do that by understanding programs that can control the coming in and out of the chatters in the room aka booting. Or if you are fat and you want people to look at you as sexy and hot well...you can go google someone else's pics and pretend that it is you. You just have to make sure that you wont get caught and never ever let anyone see you on cam. If you aren't rich and you dont want people in the room to look down on you, you can make make an autobiography of you that saying you are from a well known family, you have driven a lot of cars and you can earn what a person earns in a month for just a week. You have to be convincing though and you should be consistent with your stories or else they wont believe you.

oh i have learned different terminologies that only in chat you can encounter here are some of the lists of terminologies i am talking about;
wanker= a person who is (*censored* ask me personally) on cam
cybering= an activity done by two people (a wanker and a stripper)
bots= those stupid programmed private messages that you received every time you enter the room.
iggy= ignoring those people you dont like or the bots so they wont come to message you
client= another way to chat on yahoo room using another programs like Y!supra and Y!epic
....and etc...

Well above all these... the good thing about chat is that you can meet really cool people that you can consider friends. =)

three of the most trusted friends  I have met in chat

Willsprincess

barbie_huntin_ken











and perkydolly......... i dont have any pic of u team so u better  send me one......<3

A Message For My Baby

i wanna catch the beauty of sunrise

and see the glimpse of sunset

i wanna celebrate life

and face every storm

i could endure every hardship

and taste the sweet moments of our friendship

baby i wanna make it with you....

I wanna wake up seeing the love of my  life

and sleep feeling at peace with you by my side

hearing your breath and feeling your heart beat

your face be the last for me to see before i fall asleep

baby i wanna grow old with you...

I wanna see myself walking down the aisle

seeing familiar faces happy and some with envy

with you waiting at the altar ready for us to say our bows

i wanna hear that soft spoken voice saying "i do"

oh baby i wanna marry you...

Im glad your no longer just my brother

Im happy we are now more than just friends

Im proud to say that you are my baby

and no man has ever made my heart so happy

you are my heart,you have my mind and my attention

i wanna be the right woman for your loving affection

since that day and from this day forward

baby i will never stop loving you....

Just A Thought...(having one of those days)

We cant always have what we want.
Either we dont deserve it and there's something better
the Lord just wants us to wait coz we aint ready for it
Happiness is really hard to achieve
alot of people looking for some alternatives but still that wont satisfy them coz that aint the thing that they really like
Sometimes im askin whether this thing im goin through will pass or maybe i just do something first to get through with it
Im sad....sometimes it is killing me but im still thankful coz my God is always my comfort and friends are always there showing their love.
It's really hard to try something new right now coz everytime i did i always fail.
Either it aint meant to be or something is missing
Crying to God is my best refuge everytime i talk to Him he washin away my worries and pain
I just hope i dont have to worry nor experience pain and get hurt again.
Truely people can disappoint u but God wont and never will
God alone is my only comfort at this moment. It's hard to gain happiness at this moment but still GOd's love is sufficient 
i say i wouldnt make it without Him
Things are so overwhelming...i have lots of things in my mind and if i aint gonna let it go i might explode
Writing this is my best remedy..helping me to think and assess my self
I dont wanna dwell on this...Im hating the feeling but i cant help it. It keeps coming back and the loneliness is really consuming.
I aint alone i know i have friends but still it cant satisfy coz it aint the thing that i want and wanting for.
Im hard to read i know but i dont wanna be read by anyone though..It's between me and my God..Coz no one can understand me but only me and Him.
I think ill just rely on God's promises. That He has a great plan for me..Plan to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future....and yeah ill be patiently waiting and keep on praying. For those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength they will soar up like an eagle and wont grow weary,,,,
Everytime i am in this emo moment as what they call me the Lord always reminding me about His word and His love...He always tellin me to BE STILL....
Psalm 46:10 (New International Version) Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."...so yeah that's what i have to do...I thank my God for everyday...and thank the Lord for keep on loving me... GOd bless everyone

~genskie~